January 2009
anger. i’m angry. i feel like ive gotten taken advantage of, even though i haven’t. i feel like ih ave no self control. i feel like iwas used. even though i wasn’t. i feel like feelings that i thought were there weren’t really there at all. like i am just something disposable nothing special, just like those little white things that you put in packages to fillt he space....
why oh why oh why oh why oh why oh why oh...
do i have no self control
oh why oh why oh why
am i so materialistic?!?!?!
i’ve been looking at alexmonroe all night and day.
at school
doing homework.
(drawing birds)
LONGING
i can
only say i miss you in so many ways.
god i loved you
we stay together out of fear.
RYAN MY TWIN!!
you are so wonderful!!! today, he gave me our twin book. which is funny because i had been working on a twin book. he also gave me two records (metric and the shins) and i love him i love him!! the best birthday present! (:
actually
right now i’m really tired. i hoped i could sleep til 3. i really hate blogs and i hate that i got a b-
and yes i am still hung up on that. it was a really good fucking essay. maybe you don’tt hink so. but all of you are wrong and probably liked the catcher in the rye. i’m just kidding. i liked it too. maybe this sounds slightly arrogant. fuck my life!! (:
but anyway. i’m...
did not
get in trouble this time. i love everything always and my eyes are sore. i love everything always.
“What that quote was trying to say was that…you know, the things we find...”
– ME IN SPIRITUALITY CLASS. WHAM BAM THANK YOU MAM.
f my life!
whitt gave me a mother fucking B-
i cannot fucking believe it.
that was a really good fucking essay.
F U!
W: listen, i don't think we should talk anymore.
S: are you sure?
W: yes, please just understand where i'm coming from.
S: i do. i hope the best for you.
W: thank you, sophie. good bye.
S: bye.
....2 days later.
S: hi, sorry to bother you, but i need guitar pro.
S: so can you send it, please?
Will someone please tell me
What space means?
i loveyour mother fuckin face
i cant stop slut!
I'm just a sucker
for all of your crap! What can I say. I like sweet nothings and I like closing my eyes and hugging my pillow. That totally sucks. I am such a chick.
Anyway, my friend William is in Oregon right now. Specifically Portland. I’m jealous of that. I want to talk about my friend William for a little bit. He is a nice guy. A really nice guy. He’s just an asshole a lot, too. I don’t...
ABBA
you’ll be dancin’ once again and the pain will end, you will have no time for grievin’
chiquitita, you and i cry but the sun is still shining above you.
learning that on guitar.
Lonely Friday night.
I hung out with my mom today, she bought me a nice cardigan and I picked up my new glasses, which look like this:
I forgot to mention that a few days ago i beat blockdude.it only goes up til level 11. what the hell am i going to do for the rest of the semester??!!?!?
also, tonight i went to borders and read a lot of the mushy books that i said i was going to read (in the second to last post)...
My brother hasn’t ever taken piano lessons and he’s already taught himself how to play half of Clair de Lune. He says it took him 38 minutes. That is not fucking fair.
I am the classical music afficionado. Mother fucker!!
Maintenant que je suis célibataire (haaah), I have a various array of things that will distract me:
coolvinyl (i bought this only because it had pandas on the front and was pleasantly surprised that it was pink) and.
cheesy romance novels by stephenie meyer that aren’t twilight. ( i just bought this yesterday and am commencing to read it. i will also buy other mindless books by meg...
I don't understand why I find this endearing.
A: Why would I live on a houseboat with you?
B: Because we'd be married, bitch! Now shut up!!
today sucked cause!!!
1. i forgot to turn in my detention
2. transcripts weren’t working so i couldn’t getmy real tote gpa so was stuck giving udub a lame one and
3. i left my phone on top of my car and drove away after school and it is broken ): i had so much fun with that phone. i will never try to look cute again.that’s why people were looking at my car as i was driving away. THAT’S WHY....
DONE!
so far with: Bard, American, Georgetown, George Washington, William and Mary (<3), and NYU!
almost done with UW
and I still need to do URich, Goucher, and Seattle U, which are all due in February! (: Yayayayay!!
(:
my essay for bard is going to be about
how blogging is an art form.
got my
helix pierced and double ear lobe piercings and my mom doesnt know. normally this owuldnt be totally cool, except i am totally cool because my mom doesnt know and it’s totally cool!! and now i want moar moar moar piercings!!!!
also yes man was really good. i like jim carrey a lot in roles like that (he did a similar role in eternal sunshine, but he was quirkier and it was cute. but i...
my heart hurts for danielle. she is really good and just like me, and i know what it feels like and i love her. and i know she will be okay in time, but i know what the wait is like.
4 schools !!
down. 6 moar schools to go!!!!(:
why i want to attend george washington university:
i don’t really. i just picked it froma list of schools in washington d.c. because iw anted to be closer to a boy who is in richmond who also fuels my affixation to people that have that accent or have been to the south or drink sweet tea or like folk punk or dress liek they would like the sort of music hel ikes. anyway, i probably wouldn’t get in. and i don’t really like...
Grey, (I think you're talking to me!)
I didn’t buy it, the school had it installed on their computers. We just bought the instruction guide (which I didn’t really buy…) But if you go up to the computer lab I”m pretty sure they have it installed there.
everyone just wants to get wasted and hates everyone else.
1. thanks geraldine !!
2. this has been a good birthday so far because i got everything that i wanted (i am such a materialist.) but also, wellington got groomed and he smells really nice and looks like a grown up dog because he doesn’t have so much fur. also, for the first time ever, i will get to blow out candles on top of an ice cream cake at left bank tonight (my mom picked the...
yay its my birthday which i am going to spend being happy (unline any other birthday) and excited! and if i am lucky, i will get ice cream cake (FOR THE FIRST TIME) and my family will have dinner and everyone will love me (:
i love you everyone!
so weird. hung out with people i thought i hated last night it turns out that im exactly like them not int he way that we’re both like the same, spiritually, but the same that everyone has the same interests. kind of. anyway, my mom keeps asking me what iw ant to do for my birthday tomorrow and i told her i dont want to do anything, id ont want to invite over any friends, i want to sit alone...
itss
so easy to change from happy to sad
got the car. dad was like hai just give me a hug, ok. and that was really nice.
therefore i spent new years evening sad and alone in a room full of people. LOLZ.
so i kind of just hung out with danielle and kyle and stuff in the other room and had a very nice dance party with raisha and stuff to 80s flashdance music and i amde a friend (ian). tonight was nice i guess but it would have been...